Turning Symptoms into Solutions
The world inside
I have been through the Science of Successful Change program, recently completed first "reading" and ready to go through it again.
Today was a particularly tough day. Imagine this: I walk up onto a stage to perform, and look out a a room full of audience members. They all cross their arms and boo and shout out that I am a fool and this whole show is a load of crap. (They are not a polite or well mannered crowd.) "Who do you think you are," they all complain, "Taking our hard earned admission to this show and giving us this ridiculous unproven nonsense?" I feel totally overwhelmed and for a few minutes I am tongue-tied in fear. But after a few minutes I realize that fool or no fool, I believe in what I am doing. I tell the audience this, and I tell them that they are stuck with me. I am the act, and they can come along for the ride or go home. There is silence. Finally, to my surprise, about 6 or 8 of the 150 people who are there come up on the stage and stand awkwardly with me. "We think she is right," they say, shuffling their feet and looking uncomfortable. "We think there is something to all this Science of Successful Change stuff, at least it's better than anything else we've encountered elsewhere. We're in." The remainder of the audience looks grumpy, but they don't leave. I realize that they intend to stay for the whole show and heckle. I realize that they are part of me, and they probably won't ever go away. In time, more of them may join me on the stage, but some never will. Some will always sit there and complain, shaking their heads and saying that this is all folly. Funny, when they could just leave, why do they stay?
Of course, this is not really what happened to me today. I did perform on a stage before a small crowd of people, and though I was assaulted by doubts and fears, the actual audience was very polite and supportive. But the interior audience really gave me a hard time.
I feel lonely at times, working on bringing about profound change in my life, in the midst of so many who just don't think profound change is possible. These negative people are both inside me and outside me. I often hear DRD's words echoing in my ears: "You are no longer in the world. The world is in you." Today I know what that means. I know now that I make my world. That is quite the realization.
I have lots of fears. What will I do about the negative people in my life, many of whom are my closest friends, and whom I love? How will I integrate my commitment to be a loving, accepting person, with my frustration with this negativity? What will I do about the negative people in that internal audience, many of whom have no intention of ever leaving?
I also have lots of hopes, and I am making new beliefs. Every day, I sit down and re-craft the new beliefs, sitting quietly, working through my affirmations and meditations. They seem so ethereal, these new beliefs. They shimmer in the air and give me great joy, but like visions or like wild creatures they tend to flee when others come into the room, and the old beliefs, heavy with the dust of many years, come back into position.
I really do believe that change is already happening. One of the ways I know this is that I feel so shaken when my old reality grabs me by the throat. I am newly horrified by that old reality. I am judging it from a new place.
I often wonder about other people, folks out there grappling with this SOS program (or its equivalents and cousins.) Are there others who also have (and keep) a belief that the universe ultimately must make some kind of sense? Are there others who are looking for a new kind of sense? Are there others, who feel a kinship with Galileo, thinking maybe the world is possibly not flat after all, and afraid of being put to death for heresy? By their own families and closest friends?
Well... I was kind of surprised when I stood up to that internal audience today. I was even more surprised when they didn't lynch me, and when some of them actually joined me. I take great heart from that. I guess it's still my life, and I guess I can still choose to believe new things.
I would love to hear from others who are on this path. What are you discovering? Do you know things that could help me? Can we support each other, even though we are so disparate?
Today was a particularly tough day. Imagine this: I walk up onto a stage to perform, and look out a a room full of audience members. They all cross their arms and boo and shout out that I am a fool and this whole show is a load of crap. (They are not a polite or well mannered crowd.) "Who do you think you are," they all complain, "Taking our hard earned admission to this show and giving us this ridiculous unproven nonsense?" I feel totally overwhelmed and for a few minutes I am tongue-tied in fear. But after a few minutes I realize that fool or no fool, I believe in what I am doing. I tell the audience this, and I tell them that they are stuck with me. I am the act, and they can come along for the ride or go home. There is silence. Finally, to my surprise, about 6 or 8 of the 150 people who are there come up on the stage and stand awkwardly with me. "We think she is right," they say, shuffling their feet and looking uncomfortable. "We think there is something to all this Science of Successful Change stuff, at least it's better than anything else we've encountered elsewhere. We're in." The remainder of the audience looks grumpy, but they don't leave. I realize that they intend to stay for the whole show and heckle. I realize that they are part of me, and they probably won't ever go away. In time, more of them may join me on the stage, but some never will. Some will always sit there and complain, shaking their heads and saying that this is all folly. Funny, when they could just leave, why do they stay?
Of course, this is not really what happened to me today. I did perform on a stage before a small crowd of people, and though I was assaulted by doubts and fears, the actual audience was very polite and supportive. But the interior audience really gave me a hard time.
I feel lonely at times, working on bringing about profound change in my life, in the midst of so many who just don't think profound change is possible. These negative people are both inside me and outside me. I often hear DRD's words echoing in my ears: "You are no longer in the world. The world is in you." Today I know what that means. I know now that I make my world. That is quite the realization.
I have lots of fears. What will I do about the negative people in my life, many of whom are my closest friends, and whom I love? How will I integrate my commitment to be a loving, accepting person, with my frustration with this negativity? What will I do about the negative people in that internal audience, many of whom have no intention of ever leaving?
I also have lots of hopes, and I am making new beliefs. Every day, I sit down and re-craft the new beliefs, sitting quietly, working through my affirmations and meditations. They seem so ethereal, these new beliefs. They shimmer in the air and give me great joy, but like visions or like wild creatures they tend to flee when others come into the room, and the old beliefs, heavy with the dust of many years, come back into position.
I really do believe that change is already happening. One of the ways I know this is that I feel so shaken when my old reality grabs me by the throat. I am newly horrified by that old reality. I am judging it from a new place.
I often wonder about other people, folks out there grappling with this SOS program (or its equivalents and cousins.) Are there others who also have (and keep) a belief that the universe ultimately must make some kind of sense? Are there others who are looking for a new kind of sense? Are there others, who feel a kinship with Galileo, thinking maybe the world is possibly not flat after all, and afraid of being put to death for heresy? By their own families and closest friends?
Well... I was kind of surprised when I stood up to that internal audience today. I was even more surprised when they didn't lynch me, and when some of them actually joined me. I take great heart from that. I guess it's still my life, and I guess I can still choose to believe new things.
I would love to hear from others who are on this path. What are you discovering? Do you know things that could help me? Can we support each other, even though we are so disparate?
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Permalink Reply by Tracy Mannikko on -
Hi Anne!
Yes, I am there with you and am definitely a truth seeker. Over the last 19 years i have been on a slow and gradual path awakening to all the self talk and messages that somehow got programmed into my cellular memories. The ones that dont serve me I am learning to reprogram with the help of great teachers in many different areas....such as the Healing codes, the Sedonna Method, Bill Harris with the Holosync and many, many others. i have completed the Peak Potentials Quantum Leap program and have learned from many books and seff study programs...but it all starts with awareness and from there I have been building on intuition after decluttering as much as possible--I am finally noticing more syncronicity in my life--it just shows up...like Dr D's study--I have been wanting to fine tune my body and get back in shape for the long haul...I see so many sick people00I do not want to go that route! Anyway, most tests are very expensive and they was holding me back--bu then all of a sudden this study showed--so I took action! I am noticing that am retlentless in doing what ever it takes on many fronts to discover the truth about what really heals people and helps people--as well as how we are all being dupped by big Pharma... and other controlling organizations like CODEX. I am shocked as to what we all have not been told! So as You can see--I needed to become good at relaxation and stress control so that I can learn and not freakout at the stuff I am uncovering in many areas! I find the Sedona Mehtod to be a life saver as well as Byron Katie's book "Loving what Is". Right now though, I am going to make Dr D's program my main focus--so I can see the best results I can achieve with his help. I made copies of the Interview Dr D did a while back with Kevin Gianni and have given it to many others to help people wake up to taking better care of themselves which will change their lives--probably in many areas they never realized--as it is all connected---our bodies, our minds--we are all energy--that seems so weird doesn't it? but if your read the research--it seems to be true....so I am one who would have agreed wtih Galileo--despite the risks!
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Permalink Reply by Anne Millerd on -
Thanks for your reply Tracy! I will look at some of the materials you reference. Very nice to meet you. I will look forward to hearing more from you.
Anne
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Permalink Reply by Tracy Mannikko on
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Hi Anne
Nice to meet you too! I also find the info good at www.republicmagazine.com/webinar
they have the past replay links to such topics as the Myth about Cancer by Brian Peskin
and info on CODEX Alimentarious and on Floride all in the webinars between Jun 3-5 2009.
Also you can here all the replays for many great talks from great doctors--some of which I believe
Dr D knows very well--they all have such amazing info...go to:
www.wholehealthamerica.com/drstevenelson and then look for the link on the left that has all the
weekly "conference calls" for the last year and a half! he has all kinds of doctor guests come talk too!
especially listen to the calls with Dr Hunt--June 24, 2009 and one in Jan 2009...he is amazing.
Talk to you later
Tracy
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Permalink Reply by Jane Alexandra on -
I just read through your posts and Tracy's. I COMPLETELY understand what both of you are saying and am going through all the same learning and struggling. Your description of the heckling audience was especially striking- I create an inner one just like this whenever something I really care about is on the line. The other day I was telling a friend that I don't actually understand WHAT basis I have for my predictions of harsh critics or rejections ie FEARS, because in REALITY I've never been treated so harshly by anyone as by my imaginary inner audience. i joined the program called The Science of Successful Change back in May. However, I successfully self-sabotaged my regular practice of intentional thought and goal programming. It did get in deep enough though to bring me back now for another try. I did not reach out to people before to give and receive support- do think that might be a critical key! Cheers- Jane
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